This is Another Year (a New Year)
January 22nd, 2012 § 3 Comments
Now that the first anniversary of his death has passed, and the first anniversary of his burial has passed, now, it feels like a new year is beginning.
It’s a mellow beginning, neither enthusiastic, nor energetic; I’m kind of pushing through living each day. Grateful, always grateful, for so much, even the sadness. I’m not resigned, but perhaps I’m making peace with a handful of the mysteries that will never be answered.
These pictures are from my walk yesterday. Our neighborhood surprises me when I keep my eyes open. Can you believe that little bird sat still? I’ve tried to photograph countless crows this past year, and none will trust me to get close with my camera. Yesterday’s bird was such a gift.
I’ve enrolled in a new writing class. It feels like a great way to start a new chapter. Something to get me into a community of writers while I decide whether or not I want to go to grad school. I’d like to continue posting here twice a week — 200 words on Tuesdays and 5 Things I Learned This Week on Fridays but homework’s going to come first. Plus, I’ve got some bookkeeping clients, and I must finish reading Clash of Kings before HBO airs the series in April.
And there’s my family: Andy, Ellie, Ruby. So glad the kids are not human so I can say, “Ruby, why can’t you be more like Ellie?” out loud.
For the curious few out there: my follow up mammogram hasn’t occurred yet because I’m having to operate within insurance company guidelines, and that has caused a delay. I’ve decided not to avoid blogging about this because we’re all in bodies that require care, and writing is what I do, and who knows — there might be someone who is positively impacted by whatever they read here.
Yes, I will get the test done as soon as possible — hopefully in the next week or so. In the meantime, I’m making friends with all sorts of clerks in all sorts of medical offices. When the topic doesn’t cause my blood pressure to rise uncomfortably, perhaps I’ll write a post with all the details of the run-around I’ve been getting. Until then, it’s on to the next thing.
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The last two photographs are absolutely AMAZING. I literally gave out a gasp. So beautiful! These are definitely a part of my favourites.
Aah I would love to enroll myself in a writing class someday. Have fun!
And I am sure the tests will be fine.
but it is good to be 100% sure.
Hope you have a great day.
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Thanks, Antara. I really lucked out with that bird photo! I don’t have time to blog about it yet, but yes, the tests were fine.
Roo,
Gorgeous photos as usual! I have just caught up on your blog after a stint of wallowing. Who am I kidding? I am still wallowing. What is it about depression that sinks it’s claws in and will not let go? I digress.
It is a new year, and if there is any sort of fairness in the cosmos (which I am beginning to doubt) this year will be better for both of us. I truly admire how you can find beauty even when you feel bad.
I truly hope your test are fine and that you will continue to be such an inspiration to me and, I am sure, many others.
Tons of love,
xoxo
-S,
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Always a pleasure to have you stop by, dear S.. Thank you! xo
I am catching up. I’m behind because I’ve been obsessively playing Plants vs. Zombies instead of doing anything, anything productive at all. But now I have put it down and I’m getting back out here again. I apologize for my delayed response. I’m glad you’re blogging about your test. We do all live in bodies that require care and sharing about that helps. It’s what makes us human (the bodies and the sharing.)
Your pictures are beautiful (as always) and I want to hear all about your writing class. You have to let me know about any fun or useful exercises so I can steal them for my classes.
And I want to know about your test results, too. Don’t bother yelling at the insurance companies, though. It doesn’t really help. (I’ve tried.)
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No need to apologize. Thanks, as always, for encouraging me to write. xo R